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					<title>Demos</title>
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					<description>I&apos;ve put some new songs on my Myspace page incase you want to have a listen.....www.myspace.com/stephaniekirkham
They&apos;re works in progress.  

&apos;Don&apos;t Give Up On Me&apos; 
&apos;Day To Remember&apos;
&apos;Angel&apos;
&apos;Don&apos;t Throw It Away&apos;
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					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I've put some new songs on my Myspace page incase you want to have a listen.....www.myspace.com/stephaniekirkham<br />
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'Don't Give Up On Me' <br />
'Day To Remember'<br />
'Angel'<br />
'Don't Throw It Away'<br />
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					<pubDate>Fri, 23 Oct 2009 03:55:44 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Fire Music Art</title>
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					<description>I don&apos;t know if it&apos;s with being a fire sign or because I feel the cold or because we always had an open fire when I was growing up and built fires in the garden but I&apos;ve always been attracted to the flames. The dancing, colourful, flickering, ever changing, mysterious beauty and warmth of fire.

Years ago I started a series of four paintings. Earth shows a woman in the woods spinning around. Her arms are reaching upwards and she&apos;s looking to the past. Water is a mermaid, green and black and her face is thoughtful and far away. Air is a lilac angel, peaceful, gentle and calm. I didn&apos;t get around to Fire. I could see her in my mind but I don&apos;t know, fire is powerful and life gets in the way sometimes. 

The other day I closed the curtains, got wrapped up and lit a candle and thought about things. 
Then I put &apos;That Girl&apos; on and listened. 
I listened to each song 4 or 5 times and watched the candle then closed my eyes. 

I drew the shapes, labelled the colours and started to paint. I&apos;ve been having such a great time! It&apos;s what life&apos;s for after all. And sometimes things get in the way but sometimes if I fill my gaps between what I need to do with what I want to do- I have such a wonderful time. And the great thing is the gaps are getting longer and more colourful!

Right now I feel like the richest I have ever been, with my fingers full of paint and my head full of colours. I feel emotional and happy. I like this time of night. When the day has been packed and boxes have been ticked and I&apos;m excited to wake up tomorrow and carry on.

I have a gold and pearl powder that I&apos;m going to use on the flames to add a bit of sparkle. Can&apos;t wait! I opened it today and had a sneeky peek. I won&apos;t let myself use it until all ten flames are painted. It&apos;s like the inside of an oyster shell and the gold is like the body of a dragonfly. 
Once someone from a record company said I have to choose between art and music but that would be like choosing my arms or my legs, my ears or my eyes.

When they&apos;re ready I&apos;ll put them up on here for you to see. 
Good night x</description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I don't know if it's with being a fire sign or because I feel the cold or because we always had an open fire when I was growing up and built fires in the garden but I've always been attracted to the flames. The dancing, colourful, flickering, ever changing, mysterious beauty and warmth of fire.<br />
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Years ago I started a series of four paintings. Earth shows a woman in the woods spinning around. Her arms are reaching upwards and she's looking to the past. Water is a mermaid, green and black and her face is thoughtful and far away. Air is a lilac angel, peaceful, gentle and calm. I didn't get around to Fire. I could see her in my mind but I don't know, fire is powerful and life gets in the way sometimes. <br />
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The other day I closed the curtains, got wrapped up and lit a candle and thought about things. <br />
Then I put 'That Girl' on and listened. <br />
I listened to each song 4 or 5 times and watched the candle then closed my eyes. <br />
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I drew the shapes, labelled the colours and started to paint. I've been having such a great time! It's what life's for after all. And sometimes things get in the way but sometimes if I fill my gaps between what I need to do with what I want to do- I have such a wonderful time. And the great thing is the gaps are getting longer and more colourful!<br />
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Right now I feel like the richest I have ever been, with my fingers full of paint and my head full of colours. I feel emotional and happy. I like this time of night. When the day has been packed and boxes have been ticked and I'm excited to wake up tomorrow and carry on.<br />
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I have a gold and pearl powder that I'm going to use on the flames to add a bit of sparkle. Can't wait! I opened it today and had a sneeky peek. I won't let myself use it until all ten flames are painted. It's like the inside of an oyster shell and the gold is like the body of a dragonfly. <br />
Once someone from a record company said I have to choose between art and music but that would be like choosing my arms or my legs, my ears or my eyes.<br />
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When they're ready I'll put them up on here for you to see. <br />
Good night x<br type="_moz" />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Thu, 22 Oct 2009 05:25:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>&apos;Sunlight On My Soul&apos; Paintings</title>
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					<description>I&apos;ve been working in the back of the flower shop painting the series of canvases that go with the songs on &apos;Sunlight On My Soul&apos; and I&apos;m very happy to say they&apos;re finished! 
Seeing them all together made me feel quite excited and I started thinking of ideas to go with the songs from &apos;That Girl&apos;.





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					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I've been working in the back of the flower shop painting the series of canvases that go with the songs on 'Sunlight On My Soul' and I'm very happy to say they're finished! <br />
Seeing them all together made me feel quite excited and I started thinking of ideas to go with the songs from 'That Girl'.<br />
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					<pubDate>Tue, 15 Sep 2009 20:47:30 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Tulip paintings for Wim and Lucy&apos;s flowers...</title>
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					<description>&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; 



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					<pubDate>Mon, 07 Sep 2009 20:17:32 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Tulips and poppy paintings</title>
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<img width="300" height="302" border="0" src="http://content.bandzoogle.com/users/stephaniekirkham/images/content/White-Tulip-1-300.jpg" alt="" />&nbsp; <img width="300" height="296" border="0" src="http://content.bandzoogle.com/users/stephaniekirkham/images/content/White-Tulip-2-300.jpg" alt="" /><br />
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					<pubDate>Fri, 04 Sep 2009 02:15:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Watching the wind</title>
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					<description>I can&apos;t seem to get any peace and quiet. 
My brain won&apos;t stop. It&apos;s like it&apos;s running up a hill and I&apos;d follow it but my knees are hurting. Louise Hay would say it&apos;s something to do with not bending and flowing with life. I am trying to but I&apos;ve been a bit tense this week deciding what to do about a couple of things.
I bend and flow with ease, I bend and flow with ease, I bend and flow with ease.

There&apos;s a tree outside the window and the wind is having fun.&amp;nbsp; All the leaves are clinging on to the branches, feeling the freeness but unable to let go. I suppose it&apos;s not that bad, feeling the wind again and again rather than being really free only to hit the ground in seconds.

My sister&apos;s dog is so happy. I feel very grateful to be seeing her everyday at the moment. She helps balance out the craziness of the kids. Summer holidays. 

Last week I went for a row on the River Dee in Chester which was rather lovely. The sun was out and the swans were showing off. I have a picture on my phone but can&apos;t get my computer to see it. Rather annoying. I knocked my camera on a door at a gig and so that&apos;s died. Not much luck on the camera front, mind you my brother has sent one so I&apos;ll see if I can get my head around it and start taking pictures again to brighten up this diary page.

The good thing is that I&apos;ve almost finished the series of paintings that go with the songs from &apos;Sunlight On My Soul&apos;. Just two more to go then I&apos;ll start on ideas to go with the new songs. I want to paint enough for an exhibition so I can sing the songs in a nice gallery and have the paintings on the walls. It&apos;ll be lovely. </description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I can't seem to get any peace and quiet. <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/sad_smile.gif" alt="" /><br />
My brain won't stop. It's like it's running up a hill and I'd follow it but my knees are hurting. Louise Hay would say it's something to do with not bending and flowing with life. I am trying to but I've been a bit tense this week deciding what to do about a couple of things.<br />
I bend and flow with ease, I bend and flow with ease, I bend and flow with ease.<br />
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There's a tree outside the window and the wind is having fun.&nbsp;<img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/tounge_smile.gif" alt="" /> All the leaves are clinging on to the branches, feeling the freeness but unable to let go. I suppose it's not that bad, feeling the wind again and again rather than being really free only to hit the ground in seconds.<br />
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My sister's dog is so happy. I feel very grateful to be seeing her everyday at the moment. She helps balance out the craziness of the kids. Summer holidays. <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/confused_smile.gif" alt="" /><br />
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Last week I went for a row on the River Dee in Chester which was rather lovely. The sun was out and the swans were showing off. I have a picture on my phone but can't get my computer to see it. Rather annoying. I knocked my camera on a door at a gig and so that's died. Not much luck on the camera front, mind you my brother has sent one so I'll see if I can get my head around it and start taking pictures again to brighten up this diary page.<br />
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The good thing is that I've almost finished the series of paintings that go with the songs from 'Sunlight On My Soul'. Just two more to go then I'll start on ideas to go with the new songs. I want to paint enough for an exhibition so I can sing the songs in a nice gallery and have the paintings on the walls. It'll be lovely. <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/wink_smile.gif" alt="" /><br />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Sun, 16 Aug 2009 23:41:23 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Pi says....keep your tail wagging</title>
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					<description>My friend emailed me this lovely picture of his gorgeous little dog and some words of wisdom........


Keep smiling and sniff out the new opportunities :) hello peeps say hello to Pi the biggest little dog there is. Pi says keep adding a little tiny bit at a time and before you know it you will have a huge life full of passion. &amp;quot;keep your tail wagging&amp;quot; you never know what is round the next corner

Absolutely!! 
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					<content:encoded><![CDATA[My friend emailed me this lovely picture of his gorgeous little dog and some words of wisdom........<br />
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<span style="color: rgb(128, 0, 0);">Keep smiling and sniff out the new opportunities :) hello peeps say hello to Pi the biggest little dog there is. Pi says keep adding a little tiny bit at a time and before you know it you will have a huge life full of passion. &quot;keep your tail wagging&quot; you never know what is round the next corner</span><br />
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Absolutely!! <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/wink_smile.gif" alt="" /><br />
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					<pubDate>Fri, 31 Jul 2009 02:51:58 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Happiness</title>
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					<description>I feel so excited about the new songs.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; I want to put them up on here but I can&apos;t yet. &amp;nbsp;&amp;nbsp; 

They sound different from before, they have a new uplifting way about them, more colourful and open somehow. They sound like Summer. Like flowers opening and waves lapping the shore. Maybe it&apos;s because I feel happier, like a line has been drawn and I can let go of the past and start again. I know I&apos;m always doing that and it&apos;s good and necessary but I feel I&apos;m on a wave at the moment and I&apos;m able to stand steady and enjoy it. 

I think too it&apos;s finally really dawned on me that it is the journey that&apos;s important. I&apos;ve read it enough times but now I&apos;m living in the day and moving forward rather than reaching so much that today got lost by the wayside and in my over reaching I&apos;d fall and push it away.&amp;nbsp; 

I went camping at the weekend and it was beautiful. No people or traffic. Just the sound of sheep and the crackling fire.&amp;nbsp; &amp;nbsp; It was overcast so no stars but you don&apos;t have to see it to know that it&apos;s there.&amp;nbsp; </description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I feel so excited about the new songs.&nbsp; <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/tounge_smile.gif" alt="" />&nbsp; I want to put them up on here but I can't yet. &nbsp;<img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/confused_smile.gif" alt="" />&nbsp; <br />
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They sound different from before, they have a new uplifting way about them, more colourful and open somehow. They sound like Summer. Like flowers opening and waves lapping the shore. Maybe it's because I feel happier, like a line has been drawn and I can let go of the past and start again. I know I'm always doing that and it's good and necessary but I feel I'm on a wave at the moment and I'm able to stand steady and enjoy it. <br />
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I think too it's finally really dawned on me that it is the journey that's important. I've read it enough times but now I'm living in the day and moving forward rather than reaching so much that today got lost by the wayside and in my over reaching I'd fall and push it away.&nbsp; <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/sad_smile.gif" alt="" /><br />
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I went camping at the weekend and it was beautiful. No people or traffic. Just the sound of sheep and the crackling fire.&nbsp; <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/teeth_smile.gif" alt="" />&nbsp; It was overcast so no stars but you don't have to see it to know that it's there.&nbsp; <img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/heart.gif" alt="" /><img src="http://bandzoogle.com/common/FCKEditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/regular_smile.gif" alt="" /><br type="_moz" />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Mon, 20 Jul 2009 14:05:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Lime green shiny leaves</title>
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					<description>Yesterday I managed to bounce myself off the bottom of the doldrums, my hiding place during the last couple of weeks and as I felt myself slowly coming back up I noticed the new lime green beech leaves beginning to unfurl and I felt a newness coming. Although I have done nothing worthwhile lately I feel like it would have been useless to try and fight the tide. Sitting listening to the wind in the trees I felt like my brain was being washed. Sometimes to sit and stare is enough. For a while nothing else mattered.
I felt recharded enough to go further down the lane, and further down the lane took me to where I walked and played as a child and the dandelions and may flowers smiled. We sat near the top of the hill, out of the wind and the mossy soft grass supported my knees and I felt like the whole earth was hugging me. I felt like my whole self could hug back if only I could let go. Sometimes I just want to sleep so everything goes away but it&apos;s not as good as feeding your senses.
There&apos;s a shop closing down the road and this morning I bought a c.d. for a pound. It&apos;s the sounds of nature. Perfect timing I thought. A gift from life so I can transport myself there when I&apos;m on the train to London tomorrow night. </description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[Yesterday I managed to bounce myself off the bottom of the doldrums, my hiding place during the last couple of weeks and as I felt myself slowly coming back up I noticed the new lime green beech leaves beginning to unfurl and I felt a newness coming. Although I have done nothing worthwhile lately I feel like it would have been useless to try and fight the tide. Sitting listening to the wind in the trees I felt like my brain was being washed. Sometimes to sit and stare is enough. For a while nothing else mattered.<br />
I felt recharded enough to go further down the lane, and further down the lane took me to where I walked and played as a child and the dandelions and may flowers smiled. We sat near the top of the hill, out of the wind and the mossy soft grass supported my knees and I felt like the whole earth was hugging me. I felt like my whole self could hug back if only I could let go. Sometimes I just want to sleep so everything goes away but it's not as good as feeding your senses.<br />
There's a shop closing down the road and this morning I bought a c.d. for a pound. It's the sounds of nature. Perfect timing I thought. A gift from life so I can transport myself there when I'm on the train to London tomorrow night. <br />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Mon, 27 Apr 2009 22:24:58 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Trip to the Emerald Isle</title>
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					<description>I went over to Dublin for a couple of days, it was the first time back over there since we made &apos;That Girl&apos; many moons ago. I do love it in Ireland. It was great to walk along the sea front and up onto Dalkey Hill where I&apos;d spent so much time gazing out to sea. 

I had mixed emotions as you do when you revisit the past. It was a time when I felt very hopeful and nervous about the future and it brought up the memories that followed, when Hut went out of business. It was good to go back and wander round Killarney though and remember how happy and excited I had been. 

It&apos;s time to find a way forward. I&apos;m happy with my new songs and I wonder how I&apos;m going to get them recorded and available for people to hear them. I&apos;m a great believer in watching the path unfold but I struggle with patience and wish I could unfurl it all a little quicker. 
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					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I went over to Dublin for a couple of days, it was the first time back over there since we made 'That Girl' many moons ago. I do love it in Ireland. It was great to walk along the sea front and up onto Dalkey Hill where I'd spent so much time gazing out to sea. <br />
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I had mixed emotions as you do when you revisit the past. It was a time when I felt very hopeful and nervous about the future and it brought up the memories that followed, when Hut went out of business. It was good to go back and wander round Killarney though and remember how happy and excited I had been. <br />
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It's time to find a way forward. I'm happy with my new songs and I wonder how I'm going to get them recorded and available for people to hear them. I'm a great believer in watching the path unfold but I struggle with patience and wish I could unfurl it all a little quicker. <br />
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					<pubDate>Thu, 16 Apr 2009 16:15:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Cherry ice cream is heaven</title>
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					<description>I went on a writing trip to London last week and started a couple of new songs! Very exciting to be working with someone I haven&apos;t seen in ages and has a history of brilliance. I can see the images in my mind as the music tells it&apos;s story so now I have to go for a long drive and come up with the lyrics. The songs are really playful and summery and I&apos;ve woken up humming them for the past few days!  

My plan is to get away after Mother&apos;s Day and give them my full attention. 
The flowers look and smell amazing and everyday will be busy now so the songs will have to take a temporary back seat until Monday. 
I love having something to work on!

I&apos;ve sold three paintings too, which is wonderful. One day I&apos;ll have a place to paint where I can make as much mess as I like and get lots done. Actually last summer was great because I painted in the field and apart from a couple of kamikaze flies, it all went rather well.

Ok I want to read a bit of my book and switch off. Last night I dreamt about spiders. They don&apos;t bother me at all but in my dream there was a huge one and it was up to me to capture it. It got away and I followed it into a huge area filled with millions of spiders of all different shapes and sizes. Some were really wierd looking. Then I woke up. I just found out that spiders represent femine power. I dreamt all my teeth fell out the night before I went to london last week, which means lack of confidence, so maybe the trip was even better for me than I thought.

My sister is distracting me with cherry ice cream. I&apos;m trying my best to stay off dairy but....cherry ice cream!! Got to go!!</description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I went on a writing trip to London last week and started a couple of new songs! Very exciting to be working with someone I haven't seen in ages and has a history of brilliance. I can see the images in my mind as the music tells it's story so now I have to go for a long drive and come up with the lyrics. The songs are really playful and summery and I've woken up humming them for the past few days! <img alt="" src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/regular_smile.gif" /> <br />
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My plan is to get away after Mother's Day and give them my full attention. <br />
The flowers look and smell amazing and everyday will be busy now so the songs will have to take a temporary back seat until Monday. <br />
I love having something to work on!<br />
<br />
I've sold three paintings too, which is wonderful. One day I'll have a place to paint where I can make as much mess as I like and get lots done. Actually last summer was great because I painted in the field and apart from a couple of kamikaze flies, it all went rather well.<br />
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Ok I want to read a bit of my book and switch off. Last night I dreamt about spiders. They don't bother me at all but in my dream there was a huge one and it was up to me to capture it. It got away and I followed it into a huge area filled with millions of spiders of all different shapes and sizes. Some were really wierd looking. Then I woke up. I just found out that spiders represent femine power. I dreamt all my teeth fell out the night before I went to london last week, which means lack of confidence, so maybe the trip was even better for me than I thought.<br />
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My sister is distracting me with cherry ice cream. I'm trying my best to stay off dairy but....cherry ice cream!! Got to go!!<br type="_moz" />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Thu, 19 Mar 2009 02:35:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>The Starlings!!</title>
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					<description>My friend Dave Toase took these the other night. 
So beautiful!

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					<content:encoded><![CDATA[My friend Dave Toase took these the other night. <br />
So beautiful!<br />
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					<pubDate>Tue, 03 Mar 2009 01:59:03 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>If kisses were snow flakes I&apos;d send you a blizzard!</title>
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					<description>Romance is still alive! 

St.Valentines Day in the flower shop was great - lots of happy men (and a few ladies too) wanting to surprise their loved ones. It was exciting and exhausting and I slept half of Sunday and then went up onto the fell to the comfort of the quiet and the soft earth under the fir trees. The cold was biting but I have a new wooly hat!

Oh check this website out if you&apos;re into photography. Absolutely beautiful! 

www.emineceylan.com</description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[Romance is still alive! <br />
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St.Valentines Day in the flower shop was great - lots of happy men (and a few ladies too) wanting to surprise their loved ones. It was exciting and exhausting and I slept half of Sunday and then went up onto the fell to the comfort of the quiet and the soft earth under the fir trees. The cold was biting but I have a new wooly hat!<br />
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Oh check this website out if you're into photography. Absolutely beautiful! <br />
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www.emineceylan.com<br />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Tue, 17 Feb 2009 03:16:55 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>When I close my eyes all I see is roses.</title>
					<link>http://stephaniekirkham.com/diary.cfm?feature=98637&amp;postid=34678</link>
					<description>Sometimes I get lost in what I&apos;m doing and it feels like a good thing and sometimes I feel like I lose my self, which I think is not always a good thing. 
Today I felt a bit fed up and wanted to escape. Escaping was out of the question though so I got on with filling buckets. I thought the way to get through this, if not to get away from it, is to change or accept it. 
I couldn&apos;t change it but I knew I could at least do a couple of star jumps and get myself out of this mood. 

Once I stopped fighting with myself and against the moment I was in, I felt better.  

Maybe that&apos;s the trick, to not get too deep into it and glide along a bit. Let things be what they are and skip like a stone on the surface sometimes. Do what we need to do but don&apos;t &apos;become&apos; it. 
But when you are doing something and you become the doer of that thing, in a way you are part of it. If you are at one with it on some level you must be buzzing with it. If you were a colour and the thing was a colour and you were making it become something else or even more of itself would the colours not be mixing and would the vibration of the two parts meeting not be the same or similar, would they be a mixture of the two colours. 

I know we are more than one thing. I know we are parts of the whole of everything. I just wonder sometimes what it is I&apos;m supposed to be doing and then I think the doing isn&apos;t that important and it&apos;s more the being. 
When I remembered today to be in the moment I felt really alive again. The flowers are so vibrant! When I close my eyes all I see is roses.

The Dutch guys brought us three deliveries of flowers to cut for Valentine&apos;s Day. They look beautiful and smell delicious! 

My favourite flower today has to be the palest pink avalanche rose. They look like a garden rose - big heads and masses of petals! Like the kind my Grandad grew but his smelled amazing especially the deepest red, but these are soft and pale and feminine.

My friend Dave took a photo of a lovely cross we made using carnations and snowdrops. We were going to photograph it on the cobbles but the cloud didn&apos;t move. 

I looked at the sky again when we brought the flowers inside and saw the starlings in flight. I love them! The feeling it gives me! They moved as a circle swarming this way and that and then swooping down, what a rush!

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					<content:encoded><![CDATA[Sometimes I get lost in what I'm doing and it feels like a good thing and sometimes I feel like I lose my self, which I think is not always a good thing. <br />
Today I felt a bit fed up and wanted to escape. Escaping was out of the question though so I got on with filling buckets. I thought the way to get through this, if not to get away from it, is to change or accept it. <br />
I couldn't change it but I knew I could at least do a couple of star jumps and get myself out of this mood. <br />
<br />
Once I stopped fighting with myself and against the moment I was in, I felt better. <img alt="" src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/regular_smile.gif" /> <br />
<br />
Maybe that's the trick, to not get too deep into it and glide along a bit. Let things be what they are and skip like a stone on the surface sometimes. Do what we need to do but don't 'become' it. <br />
But when you are doing something and you become the doer of that thing, in a way you are part of it. If you are at one with it on some level you must be buzzing with it. If you were a colour and the thing was a colour and you were making it become something else or even more of itself would the colours not be mixing and would the vibration of the two parts meeting not be the same or similar, would they be a mixture of the two colours. <br />
<br />
I know we are more than one thing. I know we are parts of the whole of everything. I just wonder sometimes what it is I'm supposed to be doing and then I think the doing isn't that important and it's more the being. <br />
When I remembered today to be in the moment I felt really alive again. The flowers are so vibrant! When I close my eyes all I see is roses.<br />
<br />
The Dutch guys brought us three deliveries of flowers to cut for Valentine's Day. They look beautiful and smell delicious! <br />
<br />
My favourite flower today has to be the palest pink avalanche rose. They look like a garden rose - big heads and masses of petals! Like the kind my Grandad grew but his smelled amazing especially the deepest red, but these are soft and pale and feminine.<br />
<br />
My friend Dave took a photo of a lovely cross we made using carnations and snowdrops. We were going to photograph it on the cobbles but the cloud didn't move. <br />
<br />
I looked at the sky again when we brought the flowers inside and saw the starlings in flight. I love them! The feeling it gives me! They moved as a circle swarming this way and that and then swooping down, what a rush!<br />
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					<pubDate>Thu, 12 Feb 2009 03:45:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Antonio Forcione Quartet</title>
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					<description>I went with my friend Dave to see Antonio Forcione in Manchester at the Royal Northern College of Music last night. I&apos;ve seen him twice before, years ago. If he&apos;s playing near you I recommend going! 
He was amazing - as were each member of his band. Absolutely brilliant! 
www.antonioforcione.com</description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I went with my friend Dave to see Antonio Forcione in Manchester at the Royal Northern College of Music last night. I've seen him twice before, years ago. If he's playing near you I recommend going! <img alt="" src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/teeth_smile.gif" /><br />
He was amazing - as were each member of his band. Absolutely brilliant! <br />
www.antonioforcione.com<br />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Sun, 08 Feb 2009 01:30:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>New songs</title>
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					<description>I mentioned it in the news section the other day but forgot to say here that I&apos;ve put three new songs on myspace, they are first recordings so by no means the finished thing.

www.myspace.com/stephaniekirkham

&amp;quot;Why&amp;quot; &amp;quot;Charming Man&amp;quot; and &amp;quot;Caught Between Two Worlds&amp;quot;

I&apos;ve written a bit about them on the forum... </description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I mentioned it in the news section the other day but forgot to say here that I've put three new songs on myspace, they are first recordings so by no means the finished thing.<br />
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www.myspace.com/stephaniekirkham<br />
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&quot;Why&quot; &quot;Charming Man&quot; and &quot;Caught Between Two Worlds&quot;<br />
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I've written a bit about them on the forum... <img src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/wink_smile.gif" alt="" /><br />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Fri, 06 Feb 2009 20:47:05 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>A day out of the ordinary</title>
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Last week I dressed up as a Princess for the day! 
The photo will be used to advertise days out at a Castle and when I have a copy of the poster I&apos;ll put it up on here. I think they might photoshop some little birds flying around me, children, knights and ofcourse the castle in the background. 
My brother would probably ask when am I going to grow up, but I&apos;d say maybe never and anyway I had a lovely day! It was a welcome change to wearing five layers of clothes and wrapping flowers!
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Last week I dressed up as a Princess for the day! <br />
The photo will be used to advertise days out at a Castle and when I have a copy of the poster I'll put it up on here. I think they might photoshop some little birds flying around me, children, knights and ofcourse the castle in the background. <br />
My brother would probably ask when am I going to grow up, but I'd say maybe never and anyway I had a lovely day! It was a welcome change to wearing five layers of clothes and wrapping flowers!<br />
<img width="81" height="125" border="0" src="http://content.bandzoogle.com/users/stephaniekirkham/images/content/Smallprincess2-125.jpg" alt="" />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Fri, 06 Feb 2009 19:21:51 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Keep living the life you want and going in the direction of your dreams.</title>
					<link>http://stephaniekirkham.com/diary.cfm?feature=98637&amp;postid=34215</link>
					<description>It snowed overnight, the sun is out and I have a day off! Wonderful. I&apos;m taking my sisters dog up onto the hills to sing to the trees and collect more heart shaped bits of fallen bark. I&apos;m making a picture with them and when it&apos;s all glued I&apos;ll paint it. I remember my Grandma saying she still felt like a 15 year old girl inside. I know the feeling!</description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[It snowed overnight, the sun is out and I have a day off! Wonderful. I'm taking my sisters dog up onto the hills to sing to the trees and collect more heart shaped bits of fallen bark. I'm making a picture with them and when it's all glued I'll paint it. I remember my Grandma saying she still felt like a 15 year old girl inside. I know the feeling!<br type="_moz" />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Mon, 02 Feb 2009 17:48:15 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>&apos;These is my words&apos; by Nancy Turner</title>
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					<description>A friend of mine lent me a book called &apos;These is My Words.&amp;nbsp; The diary of Sarah Prine&apos; by Nancy Turner. 

I haven&apos;t read a story book for years but thought it&apos;ll do me good to lighten up and also to escape now and then. 
I started reading it today and haven&apos;t been able to put it down. (other than to make carrot and corriander soup) 
It&apos;s made me smile and cry and really get a sense of what life must have been like for a young girl travelling across America with her family in the 1800&apos;s. 

I&apos;m grateful I&apos;m alive here and now that&apos;s for certain.</description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[A friend of mine lent me a book called 'These is My Words.&nbsp; The diary of Sarah Prine' by Nancy Turner. <br />
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I haven't read a story book for years but thought it'll do me good to lighten up and also to escape now and then. <br />
I started reading it today and haven't been able to put it down. (other than to make carrot and corriander soup) <br />
It's made me smile and cry and really get a sense of what life must have been like for a young girl travelling across America with her family in the 1800's. <br />
<br />
I'm grateful I'm alive here and now that's for certain.<br type="_moz" />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Mon, 02 Feb 2009 03:40:00 GMT</pubDate>
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					<title>Chicago (the musical)</title>
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					<description>I went to London last Friday for the weekend with my mum and we saw Chicago at the Cambridge Theatre and had a wonderful time! The dancing and singing is amazing! The songs are brilliant! I bought the dvd today because we both just had to see the film again. I can&apos;t get the songs out of my head.

We looked round around the shops, (I nearly came to blows with an assistant  in the Levi&apos;s shop but remembered to breathe and walk away) met probably the nicest shop assistant ever  in the rug department of Liberties, (he made up for the crazy lady earlier that day) bought my niece a beautiful pink dress from China Town and rode the buses every which way around the centre, saw a fox run along the front of Buckingham Palace and spent Sunday having a good look around Camden where my mum bought an old but very nice pickle fork. 

It was great! Just what we both needed before the madness of Valentine&apos;s Day is upon us. </description>
					<content:encoded><![CDATA[I went to London last Friday for the weekend with my mum and we saw Chicago at the Cambridge Theatre and had a wonderful time! The dancing and singing is amazing! The songs are brilliant! I bought the dvd today because we both just had to see the film again. I can't get the songs out of my head.<br />
<br />
We looked round around the shops, (I nearly came to blows with an assistant <img src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/angry_smile.gif" alt="" /> in the Levi's shop but remembered to breathe and walk away) met probably the nicest shop assistant ever <img src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/regular_smile.gif" alt="" /> in the rug department of Liberties, (he made up for the crazy lady earlier that day) bought my niece a beautiful pink dress from China Town and rode the buses every which way around the centre, saw a fox run along the front of Buckingham Palace and spent Sunday having a good look around Camden where my mum bought an old but very nice pickle fork. <br />
<br />
It was great! Just what we both needed before the madness of Valentine's Day is upon us. <img src="/common/fckeditor/editor/images/smiley/msn/heart.gif" alt="" /><br />]]></content:encoded>
					<pubDate>Sat, 31 Jan 2009 04:15:06 GMT</pubDate>
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