Lime green shiny leaves

Yesterday I managed to bounce myself off the bottom of the doldrums, my hiding place during the last couple of weeks and as I felt myself slowly coming back up I noticed the new lime green beech leaves beginning to unfurl and I felt a newness coming. Although I have done nothing worthwhile lately I feel like it would have been useless to try and fight the tide. Sitting listening to the wind in the trees I felt like my brain was being washed. Sometimes to sit and stare is enough. For a while nothing else mattered.
I felt recharded enough to go further down the lane, and further down the lane took me to where I walked and played as a child and the dandelions and may flowers smiled. We sat near the top of the hill, out of the wind and the mossy soft grass supported my knees and I felt like the whole earth was hugging me. I felt like my whole self could hug back if only I could let go. Sometimes I just want to sleep so everything goes away but it's not as good as feeding your senses.
There's a shop closing down the road and this morning I bought a c.d. for a pound. It's the sounds of nature. Perfect timing I thought. A gift from life so I can transport myself there when I'm on the train to London tomorrow night.